If there's one thing I've learned in my life so far, it's that when you hit the bottom, you have only one way to go but up. Depression is a fickle thing. Just when you think you've got a handle on it, it can throw you for a loop. But it can be dealt with. I think I'm starting to figure out how to deal with it this time. As someone reminded me yesterday, women who have experienced IF/Loss are more at risk for PPD. Given that I was high risk to begin with, it figures...
When I was in the depths of my fibro, I searched out ways to express what I was feeling and thinking. Words couldn't do it for me. I turned to my painting. Brushes and painting knives became my lips and tongue, forming the things I held inside.
Photography does the same. In one image carefully shot, I can sum up myself in the one moment.
It's been some time since I joined S&T. I was pregnant and stressed and tired. Now I have a 2 month old daughter and am not much better, in fact worse. But I figured I need to throw myself into things in order to find myself again.
So here we are. This week I'd like to show you a photo I took Sept 2008, after my second (and devastating) miscarriage. I was in Toronto, running a work charity event and working on a project. In my evenings free, I took the subway downtown and explored, camera in hand.
I love this photo, there's something about this man, hands in his pocket, head bent down, just walking his path, that resonated with me deeply. It still does...
Don't forget to stop by Mel's place and see what the rest of the class is showing...
7 comments:
You have such an artistic eye. I love the feelings you capture in both your photography and your art.
That is a beautiful photo. So melancholy.
Beautiful shot. I think I saw more in it because you explained where you were emotionally when you took it.
This a great picture, there is sadness and solitude in it. But it's so beautiful.
That is an awesome photo! I can see why it resonates with you....I feel a similar feeling looking at it.
It is a beautiful photo, and it makes me very pensive.
How wonderful to have an outlet for the malaise, and especially one that benefits the rest of us in the class.
But still, depression is no fun.
Nice to see you in S&T again!
beautiful shot. i can see why it resonated with you, especially with all you were feeling at the time.
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