I'm feeling slightly panicky. I should stop reading the forum I'm on for awhile. It's making me freak out.
It's all statistics. 20-25% of the ladies in my Birth Club will experience a miscarriage. I know and can accept it. It's just that a missed miscarriage is my greatest fear. I hear about women who had a heartbeat one week and then the baby dies. There have been several women in the last few days who have had miscarriages. Many around the same place I am right now.
I'm so scared for Bean. I just want to continue being happy. I'm almost in tears right now (damn hormones)!
In my heart I know Bean is fine.
I just don't know how to turn off my mind.
I just need to make it to Tuesday. We have our first prenatal appointment with my OB. Hopefully she can do a quick ultrasound to check on Bean. I may have to get hormonal and demanding if she says no. :) But she's pretty great so hopefully she can ease my fears.