Man am I pissed!

I just wrote this incredibly long posting in which I vented all the stupid things that thappened today (boy did that feel good), only to click the wrong button and lose it (Shit!). So I am going to bed before I totally lose it!

Reflections on a not entirely wasted weekend...

Looking back at yesterday, I realized there was a pattern to the weekend: little homework accomplished. Oh well! I suppose I made up for some of it by thoroughly cleaning my room. I mean, we're talking a complete purging of as much crap as possible and some serious organization. I bought one of thoses plastic stands of drawers on wheels. I actually bought two, but when I was putting the wheels on the second one I realized that one corner was completely broken off and I had no where to put the wheel. Great! Now I have to find the time to go out to Superstore and exchange the stupid thing just so I can finish cleaning my room. (Sigh). Time is one of those wierd things in which one's perception of it is constantly changing depending on the situation you're thinking of. For example: I have all these assignments and chapters to read but it feels like time is moving so fast that I'll never catch up and finish it all, and I just want it all to SLOW DOWN! On the other hand, I look at what the next year holds for me and it's kind of scary but exciting all at the same time! I'll be finishing school, starting my new career (hopefully) and moving in with my boyfriend (wherever he ends up living- Victoria or Vancouver-we're not sure yet). This is all going to happen in September 2005. In reality that's a little less than a year away and counts as quite a chunk of time. When I look at all the good things that are going to happen I almost wish I could fast forward 11 months. I can't wait to live in the same city as my boyfriend. In reality, since we've been together, we only lived in the same city for 5 months! It's hard to go back and forth all the time, but we just keep going because we believe so stongly in our future together (and I do realize how sappy that sounds). The point of all this rambling is that I feel I just can't keep up with time and all the emotions I'm feeling. Sometimes I just want to hide under a big rock... or better yet have someone get me off of this big rock! BEAM ME UP SCOTTY!!!!!!!!!!

Hello! Welcome to my crazy world.

I am sitting at home in Victoria, drinking Rooibos tea and pretending to do homework. It's not that my project isn't important. It is... and it's due in a just over a week. However, it seems that my motivation lately has been lacking... A LOT! I'm not sure why, but I have never had this incredible desire to sit for hours on end and try to process words out a textbook. I'm thinking that someone should invent an osmosis machine. Direct dump the contents of the texbook into one's mind and take it from there. Sound's simple enough but also pretty impossible. Actually, that sounds like most things in life. Guess we have to get our amusements somehow. I'm sure if I asked my boyfriend about it, he'd go off exactly why it wouldn't work. You see, he's doing a master's degree in physics. He loves to try and figure out how exactly things work. It's pretty cool, but does me little good when it comes to my own studying. I guess I'll just resign myself to the fact that nothing will be invented before I graduate. At least it is an interesting project for a really neat class. I'll take what I can get!